Afraid of going inpatient

I'm going into the hospital in 6 hours. I'm getting up at around 5:30 am or so which will put me there by around 6 am. My husband has been trying to convince me all night that this is what I really need.

I thought it's what I needed, but now that it's close to check in time, I'm getting more and more afraid. I don't like going inpatient. Not at all. I don't like the loss of freedom. Of control. Of choice.

I know deep down that I need this. But I'm so afraid. But I'm going, even though I'm afraid.

You won't be seeing any posts from me for probably about a week. That's my average stay when I go inpatient.

Evy